Girlie Girl

I have to say that recently as my nesting instincts have kicked into high gear I have been channeling my inner girlie girl and loving it! I love the pinks, oranges and yellows. Not that Matthew cannot wear or have these colors but contextually it is different. I am excited for hair ribbons, bows and dolls. To make little pony tails and buy a little kerchief and head bands! I cannot believe that soon I will have a little girl. SOON. I am excited and amazed. And nervous. Kevin is nervous too. I know it will be okay, we will figure out the wiping thing which for some reason terrifies us both!

As it was with Matthew, I am looking forward to meeting this little person growing inside of me who flitters & flutters about, drags her foot (feet?) across my abdomen with more and more frequent regularity throughout the night hours, and has taken to having the hiccups some times 4-5 times a day!

I remember looking down at Matthew in the wee hours of the night while nursing and seeing the boy he would become. I never had words to describe that night, I likely still do not - more then anything it was probably a combo of intense love and desperate sleep deprivation! I just remember seeing how he would change from baby to boy soon as he laid there before me across my boppy sleeping. And this was just a few weeks into his life with us!

I remember longing for the moment when I would hear his little voice and how it amazes me to this day to hear him rattle on about random things.

I love how her room is turning out - the retro Partridge family birds, the color of the room, putting up some of pictures I had in my room as a girl.

I am excited that we have her name picked out.

I am enjoying Matthew's increased understanding and awareness of Baby Pancake - giving kisses and hugs and asking about what she will be like when she gets here.

I enjoy the dreams of her that I remember here and there. Where I firmly believe I am meeting her in a way. To help prepare me for her entry into our lives in the very near future!

I stand in her pretty green & pink room looking at the little pink socks and ruffly pink outfits and hope to gawd that the tech was right... that she is indeed a girl...