Day #2: Confessional

Hey, I am back. Oh one bonus that I am NOT going to complain about is that M and Miss Pancake both nap at the same time. Also, do not judge me but M is watching WAY way more television then the recommended "1-2 hours at most" for kids his age. It is how I am coping people. Wait till we have to break THAT habit. Way to go Momma! I ROCK.

This morning we only had one melt down EACH. M totally put another dent in the wall when I gave him a time out. I can feel the value of our home slipping as I speak... I feel the need to mention to you how horrible my language has been. Could this be hormonal? I mean seriously I say the "F" word and I say it often and maybe I even say it in front of M which ummm did you know he is like a parrot, kind of? SO yeah my kid may be the one teaching your kid how to swear soon enough. Which is kind of like a family tradition since my mom taught be this important word at an early age as well. Again I ROCK.

I think I am sling/baby carrier illiterate. I cannot get my kid into one of them for the life of me. SEND HELP NOW and quickly before I lose my mind. I cannot carry a baby in one arm for one more moment. I am heading out tomorrow I think to buy a stinkin' ring sling in hopes that I can figure that out. I mean seriously. Are these things supposed to make a baby sob uncontrollably??? Or is it just me. AND why do all the carriers say "it is SO easy to breastfeed using this product?" I call them on it and say BULL SHIT!!!

Finally, I have this love/hate relationship with TLC's Baby Story. Today I was flabbergasted by the lady who was baby #4 and she said something along the lines that being pregnant every year or two would be dandy with her and also that having her tubes tied was like killing her or taking the life right out of her, she felt empty... Okay I can understand this to some degree. I mean I am sad that we are done and even after some of the posts I have written recently I can see having another baby (WHICH WE ARE NOT SO DO NOT EVEN ASK or THINK THAT!)

But I do not think my life is over now that we done having babies. I feel like it is just beginning in some ways. It is neat to see Miss Pancake changing already. Her smiles and coos, her little bird legs turning into to chubby kissable baby goodness. Her sweet demeanor and the look she has on her face when she sees me like "ahhh I know you and I really think you are a pretty person to gaze upon" And pregnancy every year or two??? EKKKK. Scares me. Any who, I am rambling. Thank you for the supportive comments y'all. Emily, you can totally laugh at me and with me. I like that! I hope I making someone laugh because it makes it much much easier to laugh at myself at the end of the day!!

30 WEEKS and counting!

THIRTY weeks. 30 weeks. WOW! How times flies!!! That is amazing to me. I have felt (I will regret writing this I am sure) pretty good the past few days. When I say that I have had some strong contractions especially yesterday. If I sat perfectly still the contractions would subside which is just dandy but that also meant I was planting my butt in my chair at work for nine hours straight without taking lunch, only to get up and take the well worn path from my desk to the kitchen for food which is a non stop feast in my case! This cannot be healthy.

Can it be that in 8-ISH short weeks I will be having a new baby to hold, love and cuddle?!?! AMAZING! I will post pregnancy photos of me from yesterday as well as shots of the Pancake's room tonight.

I have been trying to think and plan for what I will need for the hospital and after. I know I cannot think of everything but I would like to remember the things that were great to have that I did not know about the first time.

I was laughing heartily over the weekend at how wonderful Kevin was in those early days after Matthew arrived. He ran out and bought me Depends (birth is SO sexy...), monstrous pads and stool softener - that is TMI TOTALLY! Now that is LOVE. I have a list but I keep thinking of new things like those flat little cotton pads. Those are great for everything after a baby comes. Matthew had a rash early on and we would get those wet and use them as wipes rather then regular store bought wipes and the rash went away almost immediately! I definitely need more of those!

My office decided to throw us a shower which happens tomorrow then we will need to decide on what we really need beyond that. Three of the biggies are a bouncer, a couple of slings and a new baby monitor.

I have yet to commit to slings. I looked once and never did buy any. I need to unearth emails from Melissa about the ones she liked the most.

Additionally I am still grappling with whether I want to use cloth or disposable diapers. The same place I would like buy slings has the best selection of covers and diapers in town that I have ever seen which would make is easier to buy these things locally versus the first time when I would have had to buy most everything online. I am thinking we may try a combo thing.

Oh and ha we still need to do something about daycare for Pancake... Both Kevin and I keep putting it off which is just tragic.

Anything you can think of that I/we might need?