Holy cow (which I just typed as sow which is made me giggle for reasons unknown to me...) SO my baby is going to be THREE on Saturday. I am still in awe of this. I am not like 'OH when did that happen', mostly I am just thinking 'WOW'! The time flew by but in a great way! I have loved every moment of it. Even the early days that scared me the most. Even the tough times.
Seeing him turn three (or just to get a little older) makes me feel like such an accomplished person. What parent does not feel this way? I do not look at my failings and short comings. I do not look at the moments when I have lost my temper. Those happened. They were a part of the three years as much as the laughter, tickles, learning to rollover/crawl/walk/talk, all of the milestones - every dang amazing moment of my son's three years on this earth!
I cannot imagine our lives without Matthew, not for a second. I hope with all of my heart I never have to know that as long as I am alive. He is truly my greatest accomplishment. Without Matthew, we would not have made new and wonderful friends. We have grown and changed in our friendships with old friends especially as all of our families grow. He has helped me to slowly slowly learn patience, to overcome exhaustion or illness to be there for him, to be a stronger more responsible human being then I thought I would or could ever be! He has a diverse set of tastes and likes to draw us into the world he occupies, to be a prince and princess, to build a garage for his trucks, to hunt for dinosaurs with his lantern and many more imaginary worlds that float through his head!
His hugs lift me up to the sky when I am having a bad day and his smile sends me to the moon. He is funny and quirky and silly and I helped to create him. I love my little peanut, my pumpkin pie more then words can describe and I am so excited for him to turn three. To see how he changes and grows over the next 12 months. I look forward to seeing what new things he will teach me about myself, about who I am, who Kevin and I are as a couple, and how he will react to being a big brother to his baby sister.
What a year it has been and what a year there is to come!