Monday, August 25, 2008

Week 4 ALREADY!?

Oh, oh HI! Yes, I am alive and here and surviving. Holy cow what a month. And A MONTH?!??! I mean seriously when did that happen? Miss Pancake is starting her fourth week on this earth and really it seems like she has always been here in our house. She is just the coolest and M is the best big brother ever! M gave me a hug and kiss good-bye this morning and unsolicited he gave Miss Pancake a kiss and hug and then said 'I love you Baby Miss Pancake' (oh the tears... actually I did not tear up, I just smiled ;) He even held her yesterday and he grinned from ear to ear the entire time!!!

We are doing well though we did have a brief ah issue all day Saturday until I realized 'holy crap I am trying to freeze the poor baby to death'. Despite the fact that it was hotter then heck the air conditioning was/is COLD.... As soon as I realized that she was COLD & put her in something warm, she slept like a champ.

Really the most "interesting" experience for me has been the fact that I have felt virtually no depression with Miss Pancake like I did with M. I have had over wrought feelings and tired moments but nothing unusual which just under scores how horrid I was feeling with M. After three years I just assumed maybe I blew those feeling out of proportion but I think it is safe to say that what I felt was real back then with M. What a huge difference! I am enjoying each moment & not wishing away the time or feeling all the hideous scary feelings I felt when M was a baby and holy crap we are starting week 4 - seriously each moment in those early months seemed to last a year but with Miss Pancake the first weeks have gone by quickly and not just because this #2 since M has been at K's house during that time (whoa holy shitty run on poorly stuctured sentence...)

I am just happier, different, more open, less tired, less shell shocked, less frustrated - I could not ask for a more wonderful experience!


Miss Pancake sitting pretty in Winnie the Pooh


Friday Night Family Night!!!


Brother & Sister sitting together before Enchanted


Proud Daddy & Miss Pancake before FNFN


Close up doing tummy & back time

5 comments:

Jen said...

Yeah! I am so glad you are happy and enjoying your time with sweet Baby Pancake.

Love the pictures! Your family is simply adorable. :)

AndreAnna said...

Doesn't it just fly by?

The pics are great!

melissa said...

I'm so happy that you're feeling so good! HOORAY! Love the pics. I can't believe it's already been 4 weeks. Pancake is just adorable and look at how happy you all look!

Shades of Gray said...

I'm so glad to hear that things are going so well. And I'm just gonna say it again, Miss P looks so much like M!! I think you need to post some comparison pics. You know, in all your free time. ;)

Welcome to our World said...

Hey K~ I would love to do this but I need to find the photos. I think the early ones of M are on a different computer (like one that no longer is in operation) so I would need to scan in the photos and I am NOT so good with the scanner. I will try to work on this over the weekend because I am curious to see how similar they look as well. There are moments where I think she looks exactly like M but then other times where she looks entirely different then he did!