Why oh why do I insist on buying $3.00 coffee from Starbucks when it tastes like shit? (Even with shots of sugar free cinnamon dolce...) Ah, because they have a drive-thru and the other places in town do not... and they have organic chocolate milk that I placate my 2 yr child with (hey, it is 1% milk and it is organic...)
Why do I try to get my child to wear other shoes besides his "crocs"? Because I paid a lot of money for those other sandals but omg do they put crack on those crocs because my kid would sleep in 'em if we let him.
Why do I bother going to doctor for green snot? Hmm, well Matthew is not really sick but we'll give him some antibiotics... BUT it might be (ACK) allergies. Sniff sniff, what the hell? All those breast feeding books suck and lie about the benefits of breastfeeding and allergies... She says as she remembers the sleepless nights & the thoughts that this kid will be allergy free until he dies that kept her doing it...
Why did I just refer to me as she/her? Because I losing my mind and cannot wait to have a vacation.
Do you wonder if I am sticking to a weight loss plan as I have discussed multiple times here on this very blog? Well, even if you do not care, I am not sticking to any plan and, in fact, I am paying a lot of money for Weight Watchers but cannot seem to get my lazy fat ass off the couch to exercise and I am still eating what seems like a gallon of ice cream a week. Can we say "she is SO weak" together. I suck (and I totally dread the weigh in this week...) Oh yeah and speaking of organic - this week I managed to eat an entire box of organic peanut butter cookies... THEY WERE ORGANIC so they don't count, right?!
Why am I going to Canada next week? To spend QT with my in-laws, buy some Canadian shit for less (here's hoping the dollar is weak? Or strong... whatever - the one that makes buying Canadian shit cheap), go to the wedding of people I hardly know so I can chase my child around while my husband gets drunk with his old buddies and I can feel wildly uncomfortable and out of my element, I LOVE POTHOLES, AND (drum roll please) it will be cool there (58 baby! YAHOO FOR ME!)
How old does Matthew look to you? Because some lady at the doctor's office with her little baby and four year old daughter asked me today "so is your son here for his 3 or 4 year check up?" HE IS 29 months old, people. He is my BABY still.... holy shit. She followed that up by "my he is a big boy." She says wailing at the top of her lungs (She being me...)
Why am I so excited for the fall? Well, I love sweaters (oh you wait I will be bitching about the sweaters come January - I am fickle like that...), I love fall leaves - kicking them, playing in them, taking pictures of them (dammit I better have that new camera by then...), I like the smells of fall, I cannot wait to take a knife to a pumpkin or ride on the wagon to get the pumpkin (even though it makes my eyes red and itchy - freakin' allergies... ONE guess: I was NOT breast fed. Damn genetics and allergies...) and it will BE COOLER baby!
Do I love my new shirt from the Gap? YES. I have no idea what European fit means but this shirt made my entire week!
Why am I asking all these questions? Because I do not feel like writing about anything deep or important and it is FRIDAY, hip hip hooray!
What are you doing this weekend? I am cleaning our bathroom (have been saying that for weeks, I know...), laundry, packing, cleaning, eating (not eating ice cream or PB cookies, I swear...), working (because I am not working right now) and sleeping (oh please oh please oh please), ohhh and finishing Million Dollar Baby. What a great flick! But seriously what are you doing this weekend?
Happy Friday my friends!
Showing posts with label losing weight. Show all posts
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Friday, September 7, 2007
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
Narcissist Mommies!?
Of course, Sundry wrote yesterday about this article she read in her local newspaper about the usual mommy war crapola that we are all to familiar with by now. AND, I, of course, read this stuff like it is junk food - I cannot resist. I am drawn to it like a moth to a light - hoping to find the answer to my conundrum. As if there is some easy answer and if there was wouldn't we all be doing it by now?!
I have come to the conclusion that many of the people these articles/books seem to highlight as those who "opt out" are the people who can make that choice. They have had high paying jobs for the better part of a decade and their spouse is also making a bundle as well. They hardly EVER highlight the people who do not have combined income total of $350k or more prior to having children. It is always the corporate lawyer or the high tech CEO or the president of blah blah blah.
In fact, I read a book that said we "highly educated" women should go back to work in the vein of the Feminine Mistake right before I went back to work after having Matthew. I needed something to bolster my confidence as I felt rotten about leaving my 3 month old with a woman I hardly knew... Now after two years and an wide opening of my eyes, I realize numerous things that I have mentioned before here.
I am a better mommy when I work.
I am happy to be working because money is a necessary evil in our household.
I love my job and do not want to leave it.
I think Matthew will benefit from being around other kids at this age.
These are just a few. I checked out the Time article mentioned in the Seattle Times article from Sundry's post and I ran across this one from Newsweek this morning. Both are insightful - basically saying similar things that we have all heard before.
I am telling you this stuff - for me - is like a freaking potato chip. I cannot eat just one - I need to nosh on the whole damn bag WHICH BTW way I am doing my Weight Watchers stuff and it might just kill me! (Nice segue way, huh?) I knew the first week would be hard because it is radically changing the way I have been eating. Once again let me re-iterate, I do not eat horribly but just bad enough to know I was not going to magically lose the 15 pounds I have been bitching and moaning about for the last 6 months...
It is hard to give up things I like to eat a lot. Granola for instance. I know it is high in fat and not actually the healthiest thing in the world but I love that stuff. It is sweet and crunchy and filling and OMG did I mention crunchy!? I am hanging on to those granola bars - one would think I was hanging from a ten story building I am so against giving them up! I found these high fiber one (4 grams BABY) that offer me that sweet and crunch I like so much but still...
I also realize how easily I snack. I have always been a little meal person. Lots of small meals but I did not realize how much I have come to rely on starches and heavy snacks versus the things I used to snack on like baby carrots, fruits and veggies! I still eat those plus a pound of bread as well!
Ah, well the weight in is on Saturday so I will let you know how it goes. I am hoping to start doing some exercise again next week in addition to this WW stuff. That is going to be hard - TOTALLY the last priority for me at the end of the day. Do I sit and watch Hell's Kitchen vaguely holding that book/magazine as if I am going to use my brain or do I go down and ride the bike & lift weights?! Hmmm, I am quite certain you and you and you can guess which one I most often opt to go for! ;)
I have come to the conclusion that many of the people these articles/books seem to highlight as those who "opt out" are the people who can make that choice. They have had high paying jobs for the better part of a decade and their spouse is also making a bundle as well. They hardly EVER highlight the people who do not have combined income total of $350k or more prior to having children. It is always the corporate lawyer or the high tech CEO or the president of blah blah blah.
In fact, I read a book that said we "highly educated" women should go back to work in the vein of the Feminine Mistake right before I went back to work after having Matthew. I needed something to bolster my confidence as I felt rotten about leaving my 3 month old with a woman I hardly knew... Now after two years and an wide opening of my eyes, I realize numerous things that I have mentioned before here.
I am a better mommy when I work.
I am happy to be working because money is a necessary evil in our household.
I love my job and do not want to leave it.
I think Matthew will benefit from being around other kids at this age.
These are just a few. I checked out the Time article mentioned in the Seattle Times article from Sundry's post and I ran across this one from Newsweek this morning. Both are insightful - basically saying similar things that we have all heard before.
I am telling you this stuff - for me - is like a freaking potato chip. I cannot eat just one - I need to nosh on the whole damn bag WHICH BTW way I am doing my Weight Watchers stuff and it might just kill me! (Nice segue way, huh?) I knew the first week would be hard because it is radically changing the way I have been eating. Once again let me re-iterate, I do not eat horribly but just bad enough to know I was not going to magically lose the 15 pounds I have been bitching and moaning about for the last 6 months...
It is hard to give up things I like to eat a lot. Granola for instance. I know it is high in fat and not actually the healthiest thing in the world but I love that stuff. It is sweet and crunchy and filling and OMG did I mention crunchy!? I am hanging on to those granola bars - one would think I was hanging from a ten story building I am so against giving them up! I found these high fiber one (4 grams BABY) that offer me that sweet and crunch I like so much but still...
I also realize how easily I snack. I have always been a little meal person. Lots of small meals but I did not realize how much I have come to rely on starches and heavy snacks versus the things I used to snack on like baby carrots, fruits and veggies! I still eat those plus a pound of bread as well!
Ah, well the weight in is on Saturday so I will let you know how it goes. I am hoping to start doing some exercise again next week in addition to this WW stuff. That is going to be hard - TOTALLY the last priority for me at the end of the day. Do I sit and watch Hell's Kitchen vaguely holding that book/magazine as if I am going to use my brain or do I go down and ride the bike & lift weights?! Hmmm, I am quite certain you and you and you can guess which one I most often opt to go for! ;)
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